Wobbly Sheep

Why do I refer to myself as a Wobbly Sheep? Well, first and foremost, I am a sheep of God's pasture. This means that I am in His fold, and I am 100% saved. I can't do anything to lose my salvation, and God isn't going to lose me out of the boundaries of the gates of His love. The minute I even get close to the gates, He lovingly wraps His crook of protection around and brings me back into His loving arms. However, I can't seem to stand up straight most of the time, and I walk a crooked line. Hence the wobbly part. Does that mean I am not walking the straight and narrow? Far from it. It just means I walk the straight and narrow with flair and style. Seriously though, if you are following me, I may lead you on a few detours, and I am not sure it's the best idea to follow my example in the first place. I wish I could say that you should follow my example, but I am no Paul the apostle. I am just simple Crystal Nylander who is a wobbly sheep.

Now, I am not trying to get out of being an example to all of you. I know that as a follower of Jesus, many of you are watching my life to see how I will live. I am fine with this. But just know this. I am not perfect. I never claimed to be. I don't want to turn around one day and have one of you pointing your finger at me calling me a hypocrite. I want to live in such a way that you know exactly who I am, and you know that I haven't played any tricks on you. I will do my best to show you Jesus love, but I may still fall into sin. I have in the past, and I know my heart is capable of doing it again.

Satan has a trick up his sleeve. He is getting ready to tempt me with it. It's hard for me to tell exactly what it is. I know what I think it should be. I have told him if he was smart what it should be. In fact I will just put it out there and tell all of you what my greatest weakness is. Relationships. Specifically romantic ones. If Satan could find just the right guy for me, and have me fall in love with him, and it was the right combination and the right timing, I don't know what I would do. It's what I have always wanted. Its the dangling carrot, the holy grail of my life, if you will. And I might just go for it. So far Satan isn't doing such a hot job in that department. All the guys I know are taken, or uninterested, so it seems. But I know Satan is still up to something. Let's not dwell on Satan too much though. I was talking about what it means to be a wobbly sheep.

Basically I am not trying to let myself off the hook here by simply calling myself a wobbly sheep and then calling it a day, as if that's a get out of jail free card, and you all should just excuse my every whim. I am saying though that I am human and that if I do fall into sin, it is precisely because I am a wobbly sheep. I can't seem to walk the straight and narrow as nicely as some other Christians. I still struggle with my beliefs in some of what is considered core doctrinal beliefs. I don't want to go into them right now. Suffice it to say that I don't think as many people are going to hell as we think are going to hell. God is merciful. And besides, it's not my job to worry about who is going to hell and who isn't. It's my job to worry about my own soul, and that is taken care of. The rest is God's job. I hope you all have enjoyed this post. This has been just more thoughts from the mind of Crystal.

by: Crystal Nylander