Warrior Princess

How do I put this? I would like to think that I am God's little warrior, but I am also His little princess. So yeah, the title of this post is perfect. I am a Warrior Princess for God. But what is it that I am fighting? Sometimes it is unclear to me, but this much I am aware of. It's anything that the devil wants to accomplish in the lives of my friends, family, myself, and those around me. So, devil, I am speaking to you directly. I am here to personally squash your plans. I am here to do all I can to take back God's people for the kingdom of God, as much as it is in my power. If you are trying to drag people to hell, I am helping God pluck them out of your grasp, one person at a time, one conversation at a time. I won't take you on directly. I never asked to fight you directly. I have seen the fierceness of your wrath, and it is terrible to behold. I know what you want to do to me. I know that you would love nothing more than to bash my head in. I know that you have a personal vendetta against me. I am not sure what I did to piss you off so much. I hold no ill will towards even you, even though you have done everything to steal everything from me. God has benevolently given it all back to me. Even so, I wish well even upon you. I just wish you would stop hurting everyone. I wish you would stop trying to destroy my life. I know you can't really touch me without God allowing it. And even still, He may allow some harm to come to me under your control. You would love that. God stands between me and you, and is my ultimate protector. He is all the protection I need. But don't underestimate me either. Like the singer Carman wrote "I am that Christian hell warned you about". I am not to be trifled with. The more you hurt me, the stronger my resolve will be. It will only make me stronger, oh you who goes about like a roaring lion. You can even kill me. But that will just make me the ultimate beautiful creature of God, and then you can't touch me, and I then I figure I will just be the ultimate fighting machine. I am not threatening you, devil. I merely say this to warn you. Don't touch my friends, or I will be pissed, and then I will have issue with you. Consider yourself warned.

Now to all my other readers, you just witnessed a behind the scenes look at what is actually happening in the spiritual realm in my life. This is real stuff. If you don't believe in spiritual warfare, it's best you start believing it. I could get lighthearted and start talking about sex, or love or money, or pride or something else. I will get back to all that stuff. They have all been on my mind. But so has this heavy spiritual warfare stuff. So let me get real and tell you about what has been happening in the last month and a half or so. This is manic episode number 4 for me. God, I hate calling it manic, or mania, so we are going to title it something else. Let's call it Grandiose thinking, or Grandiosity. So I am in the midst of a Grandiose episode even as I type this up on April 15, 2013. This has been going on since the beginning of sometime in March. It got so bad that I voluntarily allowed myself to be admitted into LAMPS hospital in Leesburg, VA, just before Easter. I had high hopes that being in the hospital was going to solve my insomnia, grandiosity, physical problems, emotional concerns, spiritual dilemmas, everything. How could I be so naive? It was a total disaster.... except for one shining light in the midst of all this. Being in the hospital felt like severe demonic oppression. There is an ancient evil at that hospital. It's probably why I had a nightmare in the hospital that I can only interpret as meaning that the devil himself found my exact location and has not lost track of me since. For whatever reason, he feels I am crucial to destroy or it will ruin his plans for history. But God will not allow Satan to destroy me cause I am crucial to God's plans. Don't ask me why I am so important. All my life I have felt like a nothing. Even still I don't feel that important. I have bipolar disorder. I am nothing. And yet I feel like God is saying I can have great influence over history, given enough time. We shall see.

Onward with my story. After I was released from the hospital voluntarily 3 days later, people weren't all that nice to me. I could tell that since the devil had thoroughly put me through the ringer emotionally, mentally, and physically, he was now attacking me through people, my relationships. In spite of all this, I have not gotten depressed. I have remained upbeat and happy, and positive. My overall outlook on life is hopeful. Although my life would be much improved if I could just get some regular sleep. That is where Satan is attacking me the most right now. I know this is probably the most intense post I will ever write. But this is mostly for Satan's benefit. He needed to know where I stand, and I thought it would be fun for all of you to get a sneak peak behind the scenes. It's not as scary as it sounds, but just be watchful. I am going to bat for all of you in my own way. The devil can't touch you if you don't give him an opening and God doesn't allow it. Even if the devil does touch you, all he can do is kill your body. Your soul will go to be with God if you believe in Jesus. Just more thoughts from the mind of Crystal.

by: Crystal Nylander